school

today will be my actual first day of class!! too bad i am going to have to spend the entire day in anticipation. it has already started i woke up so many times last night and all i wanted to do was sleep in and i have just over 5 hours till the first Q&A aaarrrggghhh!!!

the little things...

sometimes i wonder about things... small things, big things, somethings, everything, and nothing... small things i can change... big things i can overcome... somethings i can handle... everything is too much... nothing is never enough...

home..

havent much thought about this blog in a while. i have had my life turned up-side-down since december...2 days after my last post i was fired....Dec. 12th...but that opened a door to the unexpected...i spent the next month and a half looking for a job. resumes posted on 4 different sites...looking online and from the paper... i started running dangerously low on alot of things money, food, options... my parents came to my rescue. first week of feb. i was on my way north to ohio. it was so hard leaving everything behind. all the people that i knew my home my security...but that was all gone anyways... since i got here i went thru the wringer so to speak... emotionally and physically... i left all that i knew behind starting all over again...i have made some new friends one whom is my best friend (sorry greg) i start school in 2 weeks and i have learned so much about myself...
when i first moved here i was so scared...leaving everything behind...but now i realize that i am where i am supposed to be...although i dont know what will happen next, i am so sure about where i am now. and i have never felt better!!!

rant

today was a very frusterating day for me...i find it more and more difficult to get up and go to work the last few weeks...i love my job dont get me wrong but i find it very hard too give respect to people who constantly disrespect me...being at the same place for more than 5 years i know the place inside and out...turn over after turn over i am one of a small handfull of people who have been there for more than a year ...eventhough am not "educated" as some of the newer people i get it slammed in my face that i am "below" other people. doesnt work experience and job knowledge have anything to do with anything anymore?.... my short comings with math is biting me in the ass! im not even sure where this is going but i didnt give 2 weeks notice to have someone get pissy and tattle like a 4 year old get written up and not be able to stand up for myself! if other people would do their job then i could do mind plain and simple!

merry christmas!